Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Day 141 Weigh In Day
Really I try, I try very hard but I am just not blessed with the high losses like other people. Which frankly is getting annoying. I don't know why this journey is proving to be so stubborn or if there is something that I might gain from such low losses but I am over it. Next. 2.4 pounds. That's what I lost. Not even what I had gained last week. I had a birthday goal for next week. Where I wanted to be. Well to achieve that I would have to lose 3.8 pounds. The odds of this happening are so slim it isn't even funny.
Well I am happy with a loss I am really frustrated. This week I upped my food a little because I was always hungry. I am working out more and harder then I ever have. I am waking up hungry which is a new thing for me. I used to never wake up hungry.
What am I doing so wrong that I can't get high loss numbers like most people? Why am I only drinking water and eating healthier. Why am I busting my butt and getting little love in return? Is there a point to this I am missing? All I want is some losses to go with the effort I am putting forth.
Looking in the mirror today at Zumba I felt very fat. Do I really look like that? If I look this fat now what the hell did I look like 20+ pounds ago? It is not my day.
"The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams." -Eleanor Roosevelt