Sunday, February 28, 2010

Day 136,137 & 138

What a weekend. We went out to eat twice this weekend and I am praying that this doesn't effect the scale. I am still learning my way around a lack of English speaking waiters to ask questions. Thursday and Friday I had lunch with Chris and I ate nothing from the PX. Not even a bite. I had a lot to do today so I did a workout video this morning.

I tried a Special K protein shake one of the days and it really wasn't that great. Maybe it was the flavor. Strawberry wasn't the best choice I think. I have also bought a protein bar that I can try well everyone else is eating.

I have been getting a lot of migraines and I am wondering why. I am not sure if it is the weather or what is going on but I am getting suck of it. It is almost everyday. Unless its the weather that changes non stop. Today I have seen the sun, rain, snow and now winds that remind me of autumn. It's like being home in Colorado.
I had so much to share but my head hurts and I am at a blank right now. I think I am going to pop a pill and lay down. Tomorrow's blog will be better. I hope.

"I say that habit's but a long practice, friend, and this becomes men's nature in the end." -Aristotle

Friday, February 26, 2010

Day 135

Time once again to update for the Perfect 10.

*Work out at least 6 days a week...I am short one day this week but that is much better then last week.

* Do 30 push ups a day & sit up's (yes they will be girly push ups)...I am not sure if I can change this one but I am doing ab machines and lifting weights at the gym. The main reason I wanted to do these was to help step up the videos. Now I have the gym and it is stepping it up for me!

* Eat fruit & veggies everyday...Still kicking butt on this one.

* Drink at least 48oz. of WATER a day...Drinking more then the 48oz., I am no longer drinking Crystal Light and I am soda free for a month today!

*Workout twice a day...I would like to change this one to go to the gym 5 days a week. That would work better with me. In that case though I am short a day.

Something you may not know about me is I am obsessed with the beach. I can sit and watch the ocean for hours on end and not have a care in the world. I truly find it as one of the most peaceful things for me to do. I want to have a house overlooking the ocean more then anything. Even if it was a little cottage the fact that I would be next to the sand and water would be the best.

"To avoid criticism, do nothing, say nothing, be nothing." -Elbert Hubbard

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Day 134

I knew getting on the scale this morning was not going to be good. I mentally prepared myself because I knew if I didn't then it would just mess up my day.I was right. I was up 2.7 pounds. I thought about not writing my blog to hide what had happened but you know what. I know what I did wrong. Did I really expect the scale to show me some love when I did not show my body any love? I am not OK with my gain but I am at peace with it. I know every wrong move that put me where I am on this weigh in.

I really feel like I am changing emotionally. As much as I hate to admit this when I would have a gain previously I would not work out that day and sometimes I might even eat everything because the scale already went in the wrong direction so why bother stopping now.

Not today though. Today I went to the gym early and did weights for 35 min. before I did Zumba. It felt good to left weights. I hate that area of the gym but I need to overcome it. Tomorrow is the treadmill and more weights.

Since I go to the gym with a friend if her husband wants her to stay and eat lunch with him then we do. Now that my husband is back he is joining us. Its kinda nice considering he leaves every morning at 520 and most of the time doesn't get home till after 6. I feel like I never see him. Now staying for lunch I am. Today I walked in and he asked me what I wanted to eat. Guess what I choose.... NOTHING!! I displayed total self control. Everyone was eating around me and I had my water. I took a bite of nothing. It was hard at first smelling it but I got into the conversation and next thing I knew I didn't even realize they were eating. I did buy a couple protein shakes that I figure I can take and drink. That way I am not hungry and do something stupid like given in. I mean clearly I need to work on myself control but if there is anything I learned I truly and not upset with the scale and it feels good and gives me a sense that I know I can get it down, I will and I will make changes to my eating.

I am truly in a good place with myself and I promise myself to give it all I have to get back on track and get the loss I know I can do next week.

"I can't imagine a person becoming a success who doesn't give this game of life everything he's got." -Walter Cronkite

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Day 133

Today I woke up in pain. Zumba kicked my butt and that makes me happy. I went today again and I hurt even worse but it is OK. It means that it is working right? Sat in the sauna again today and I love it. Maybe it is the warmth that I am loving. Either way it is all good. Today she had us jumping up in the air and turning. Wardrobe malfunction. My pants started untying and they started coming down. Hopefully my Wal*Mart order will get here soon though it isn't supposed to be delivered until the 19th of March. As long as the pants stay up we will be good.

My friend likes to stay after the gym and meet her husband for lunch. Well yesterday we had Taco Bell (I did fresco style on my tacos). Today we had Popeyes. I really don't care if she wants to eat with her husband but I will need to just sit there and drink water or bring a bar to snack on. I stepped on the scale today and it has a gain. Tomorrow is my weigh in and if there is a gain I have no fault but my own. I have had to much fast food since Friday and just started working out again. Maybe it is a reminder that I need to be more strict with myself. That I can do this. This week I have eaten out more then I ever have since I got here. This needs to stop. The scale will do no favors if I continue to do this.

"Opportunity is missed by most because it is dressed in overalls and looks like work." -THOMAS ALVA EDISON

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Day 132

The picture is nothing special. Just something that makes me smile.
It felt great to get back to the gym and I am glad that I went. I did an hour of Zumba and then sat in the sauna for 10 minutes. Oh how I missed the gym. Now I need to talk myself into the weight room. That is an area that I always seem to ignore but I know is something I need and beneficial. This is something that I need to work on and now.

I sometimes wonder why I have put this whole journey on hold this long. Why did I decide that I wasn't good enough to enjoy life the way I used to? I am so happy that I have decided to do this for me. Sometimes I get upset with myself that I have waited so long to do this. How much have I missed out on. How many times because of my weight did I say no to friends. I know that sometimes it was NO one to many times and they stopped calling. I will not live in my regrets that I should of done this sooner. I guess I was not ready then and as much as I wish I had been I am doing so much more this time. I am sticking to it and that makes me happy.

Just now is the first time that I have felt like I have started living again. I smile sometimes when I am getting ready and I find myself complaining because most of my clothes are fitting. It is great. Life is starting to look up. I smile for no reason and I am just feeling good. Having a car again helps though!!

Monday, February 22, 2010

Dy 129,130 & 131

I have learned some lessons this weekend. Pizza Hut is a no no and in more then one way. My stomach could not take it and when I came home I was shocked to see the fat. Pizza Hut is something new on base so I thought that I would try the small personal pizza. I think I will stay away from there.

I am still looking for something else to drink that I like besides water. The Healthy Balance juice I bought awhile back. Well I wasn't paying attention and it has Splenda. Part of this journey is weight loss, part is eating better and part is cutting out processed & unnatural food out. So if it has Spenda or any other artificial sweetener then I am not eating it. I am trying to like green tea. I don't like it hot or warm. Cold is OK. I am going to keep trying this though.

Today I did workout video knowing that I had a lot to do. Tomorrow is Zumba and the weather better not stop me. I haven't been in over a week and I am wanting to sweat and sit in the sauna. It is so therapeutic. I used to hate to sweat but now I love it. It makes me feel so good.

I put on pants today that I haven't worn since last winter that were getting to tight. I decided to try them on and now they are to big. I decided to try on a shirt that I had bought from the juniors section last summer. Xlarge. Well now it big. Not get rid of big just bunch in the middle big!!! I had the biggest smile on my face getting ready this morning. I felt a sense of excitment and new energy. Something that I have needed.

"Nothing in this world can take the place of persistence. Talent will not; nothing is more common than unsuccessful people with talent. Genius will not; unrewarded genius is almost a proverb. Education will not; the world is full of educated derelicts. Persistence and determination alone are omnipotent. The slogan 'press on' has solved and always will solve the problems of the human race." -Calvin Coolidge

Friday, February 19, 2010

Day 128

Update time again for the Perfect 10 Challenge. I really wish I could start this whole challenge over now that I have a car. None the less here is my updates.

*Work out at least 6 days a week...From last Friday to this Friday I have only worked out 3 times. I need to step it up. Not one of those was at the gym either,

* Do 30 push ups a day & sit up's (yes they will be girly push ups)...It was not a good week, thats all I have to say

* Eat fruit & veggies everyday...Still kicking butt on this one.

* Drink at least 48oz. of WATER a day...Drinking more then the 48oz., I am no longer drinking Crystal Light and I am soda free for a month today!

*Workout twice a day...Considering I only worked out 3 times last week I sure the heck wasn't doing it twice a day. I think I am going to change this one.

A fact you may not know about me is I hate fish but I love sushi.. If you can figure this one out then let me know because I am still trying to figure that one out as well.

Did 2 miles with weights today. I am sore and relaize that I can not skip the gym or workout videos. I am hoping that I will be good to go for Zumba on Tuesday. Monday I will do weights and the treadmill.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Day 127

I can't belive that it is already Thursday again. Time to weigh in. This weeks weigh in was going to be on or off. I did not except much as I did not put much into it. I haven't worked out at all. So really how can I get mad at the scale. I mean you get anything out of life that you put into it. I did not put much into it. Either way I saw a loss. A loss of 1.4 pounds!! I have no clue how that happened but I am not going to take my chances with that again. I worked out today and boy I felt it. I can't afford to skip work outs. I just really really have a hard time doing a video at home now that I have been going to the gym. It's a mind game that I am losing and need to fix. NOW. I will not mess with fate again.

I did a video off of Exercise TV today. It is so nice that I now longer have to buy workout videos when I get bored with them considering I hate them. Now I can choose what ever I want. Today I went with cardio!

Last night I made a stupid frozen dinner kit thing that I had bought a while back.

Before I started this journey. I have decided that I need to get everything out of the freezer that is no good. Well lets just say I never even ate it. Serving size was 2 pieces. Really what the hell does that mean?

Chris said the tortillas sucked anyways. The amount of chicken was a joke when you live with a man. Mostly it was a waste of money.

I had egg white instead with green chile and a little cheese.

As for my tracking calories that I started yesterday I hit 1146. I t was almost 9 at night and I was trying my hardest to hit at least 1,000. Hopefully I can figure out why I am not that hungry. I know not eating enough is not good.

"Men succeed when they realize that their failures are the preparation for their victories." -Ralph Waldo Emerson

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Day 126

I love the oats that Marcelle had me try when I went to visit her. I love them way more then I should. So I decided to try something else so I am not tempting myself as much though I will have those oats once and awhile. I decided to try

I figured I would look for something that was supposed to be good for me well I was at it. This has it all. The only thing I did not like was the raisins. I like raisins but I guess when you don't load your cereal with crap the raisins get hard. That is my only issue here. Otherwise mixed into my yogurt and banana it was good.

I finished off all of my Crystal Light the other day and thought good I am out of everything with aspartame. Well just my luck the Healthy Balance Juice I bought to replace the crystal light has Splenda. Back to the drawing board I go on my beverages. So far I am water and that is it. I am almost a month out on my no soda. I can't believe I have gone this long. The longest I have ever gone without soda was when I was prego. I never had one drop of it or coffee. So I know I can do it if I set my mind to it.

I have started tracking my calories (day 2) to see where I am at. According to the site I joined I should consume 2,000. So I changed my activity level and I got it to 1,800. Yesterday I ate 1,138. Maybe I am not eating enough and that is why I have slow weight loss. I guess I will mess with this for a week and we will see.

Tomorrow I am meeting with the owner of the car to get the title and I am one step closer to getting myself to the gym!

"Unless you have tried to do something beyond what you have already mastered, you will never grow." -Ronald E. Osborn

Monday, February 15, 2010

Day 125

I really wanted to go to Zumba today. I was ready and packed but my friend does not feel well again so I am doing a video at home. I am really nervous that when I do go I am going to get my butt kicked but that's OK because I need it. It just bums me out that I found something I love to do and I have to depend on other people to take me.

Here is a picture of us before we went out for the day. I think Chris almost feel over when I asked for a picture with him but I wanted to see if there was a difference from other ones we have done.

I was going to share with you what my husband and I had for Valentines Day at the Greek Restaurant.

We decided to get an appetizer because we haven't treated ourselves to a nice restaurant in awhile. We are loving trying new foods but it scares me because I have no clue what I am at when it comes to calories or anything.

First we started with Dolmades. Stuffed grapes leaves with a beef and rice mixture

The bread was good and I only had one of the stuffed wine leaves. I let Chris eat the other two since I was clueless on the calories and it was drenched in sauce.

Chris had some sort of meat in a mushroom sauce. I had a bite and it was good but I was glad I hadn't ordered it. Every time I see something draped in sauce I know it isn't a smart choice.

I had no clue what to order since half the stuff I couldn't say or ask the waiter about so I let Chris order for me. I got a plate full of 3 different types of meat.

Yummy! I had one bite of the rice, ate all the meat that was under the lemon and the rest I had a piece of each and left it. I was full. I also had a little of the salad and they started dinner out with a shot. Who can so no to free alcohol, right?

For Valentines Day Chris got me

and he also got me this

I can't drive it yet because I have to run it through inspection. Buying a car in Germany is not like buying a car in the states. Hopefully it will pass inspection! We have to get the temp. tags first before we can drive it to get inspected.What a mess. The guy we bought it from lives an hour & half away so we have to wait for him to take it out of his name so we can start the process. Hopefully by the beginning of next week the latest I will be driving myself to the gym!!! I will also get to go grocery shopping in peace and hopefully I will be able to switch ground beef to turkey and no one would notice!

So I am a little nervous about my weigh in for Thursday due to all the eating out that I have done this weekend but you know what. I am only living this life once and I am getting better. The fact that I left food on my plate every time is a change from the old me!

Today I am counting calories. According to a site I joined I should consume 2500 which seems like way to many either way I am not even at 1,000 and that is counting some of my dinner already. I am so confused now.

"It is the man's dreams and his inspiring attempt to make them come true that remain important." -Francis Ford Coppola

Day 122,123 & 124

I feel kinda of bad when i do not post on here everyday but when my husband is gone for awhile and comes home blogging is the last thing on my mind. Anyone who has a spouse that is always gone I hope would understand. We had so much to do and wanted to spend time together. I read some blogs though because I feel if I skip reading I am so behind I go nuts.

Eating was off and on. We went to a Greek restaurant for Valentines day and I couldn't even guess what calories I consumed. Between them running around and the lack of English I wasn't going to try and ask. Just ordering plain (non bubbled water) proved to be interesting. I will post picks of what I ate and the gifts that I got tomorrow.

Hopefully I will get to go to Zumba. Snow has been off and on. I had Popeye's twice since Chris left. I am giving him one of my chicken strips so I am only eating 2 instead of 3 and I am getting water. I am also noticing that I am feeling fuller then before. I am hoping soon that meal will fill me up and I will be able to eat off the kids menu!!!That comes with only 1 chicken strip.

Can't wait until tomorrow to share with you my exciting news!!!

"Habit is habit and not to be flung out of the window by any man, but coaxed downstairs a step at a time."
-Mark Twain

Friday, February 12, 2010

Day 121

I feel like Friday just gets here faster and faster every week. I no sooner update this and I feel like I am doing it again! So here goes another week.

Work out at least 6 days a week... I am doing good on this one. Going to the gym makes the videos not seem as bad anymore but I do hate them still.

* Do 30 push ups a day & sit up's (yes they will be girly push ups)...Not happening now that I have gym equipment to use!!

* Eat fruit & veggies everyday...Still kicking butt on this one.

* Drink at least 48oz. of WATER a day...Getting my water in and still soda free!!

*Workout twice a day...Nope. Zumba kills me but this is my week to shovel snow so I have been adding that to my regular workout!

Thank goodness Steve gives us ideas to write about because I am running out of things to think of. Moving to Germany put me on my first ever over seas flight. It wasn't as bad as I thought it could be but with the time change it took me 22 hrs. to get to Germany. I hate planes though and I was sitting next to a guy with six fingers so I wasn't able to sleep because I was to afraid something was going to happen.

If you don't follow Steve at Log My Loss his dad just died so please keep him in your prayers.

"He who controls others may be powerful, but he who has mastered himself is mightier still." -Lao Tzu

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Day 120 - Weigh In

Today was weigh in day and to be honest I was a little worried with it being TOM. The one thing that I have noticed is that I used to gain about 5 pounds during that time. As I have lost weight I am not gaining as much. Anyways I have lost 1.8 pounds this week. I am so happy yet there I go again so close to 2 pounds. I swear it's like the scale does it on purpose. Either way I am happy as can be! I am finally down 25 pounds for this journey! From my highest weight I am down 37 pounds.

Zumba was canceled today which made me a little sad. Isn't great that I am getting to the point where I am sad because I can't go to a class at the gym!!! Either way I shoveled snow for an hour and I am telling you tossing it over that wall is great exercise though my shoulder hurts a little.I know that wall is at least 5 feet high. I should have nice arms at the rate it snows here. I came in after and did a power mile with weights. I wanted to do more but I think I am good today.

I finally broke down and ordered some workout clothes from Wal*Mart. I spent $80 on new shirts and bottoms to stay up. My shirts that I work out in were starting to look like I got lost in them. If I was doing videos at home I wouldn't care but when you are looking at yourself in a wall of mirrors it makes me feel extra fat again. Now this is the first time I have ever bought clothes off the internet and I am praying they will fit. This was something I would of never ever done before. The prices here are way to high. I got 2 pairs of bottoms and a shirt for the price of 1 pair of bottoms on base. Good news is since we have to have them shipped over seas they should arrive around March 19th so I can lose some more weight!!

Dinner tonight is wheat pasta with fresh mushrooms, zucchini, onion and spaghetti sauce. First time I have made dinner since my hubby left. He better be hungry when he gets home.

"Minor details -- like pennies, add up. A good banker isn't careless with pennies. A successful person knows that details are everything." -Unknown

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Day 119

It was snowing this morning when I got up and I was so worried that Zumba would be canceled. It wasn't, I hurt and it feels great! Finished up with sometime in the sauna. I have already shoveled snow twice today as well. I think I am on a roll for my activity.

Tomorrow is weigh in day and I am nervous since it is TOM. That is about the only time of the month that I don't step on the scale everyday. I know I gain and it drives me nuts so I stay away. Tomorrow should be interesting.

My eating has been off the last couple of days and I am unsure if it is my TOM or the fact that there is so much going on back home. I hate it. It seems like there is so going on and I wish I was there. I know it is all getting to my mom. I am either eating to much or not enough.

Why is it that food plays such a big role in our lives. There are days we all eat like we would never see food again and I really doubt that we won't. Then there are days that we do not fuel our body. We abuse our bodies and it's not like we get another one. We treat our bodies badly then get upset when we get sick or get tired when we shouldn't. I really wish I treated my body better. I do feel like the changes that I have made are making me feel better but then I turn around and do something stupid and eat/not eat. No wonder my body is so confused. Food never makes the problem go away so why do I do it? Guess that is something I have to work on. By the way the night I binged I made nachos. Everything was in line all day for my eating until I made the nachos. I guess I have more learning to do in this journey.

"I don't wait for moods. You accomplish nothing if you do that. Your mind must know it has to get down to work." -Pearl Buck

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Day 118

The sun has been shining two days in a row but the temp. has been -8. Now if I could get the sun and the temp. to get together and go the right direction I would be good. I went to Zumba today and I swear that she is getting tougher and tougher ever class. I love it and my butt is so sore right now. Makes me feel like I am doing something good! Went and sat in the sauna after class. It is my TOM so I am dreading the scale not that I don't every week but I will get on it and face it no matter what on Thursday!

Went to lunch after to meet her husband and had Taco Bell. I had a nacho supreme again and I wasn't really enjoying it. I didn't eat it all which is a big step for me. I left most of the chips and just ate the stuff on top.

I am excited that Chris comes home Thursday but I am already a little worried. He doesn't want me to go to the gym on Friday and well I understand that I need to workout. He has a 4 day so maybe I can get him to take me to the gym or something. A woman can dream can't she?

I am going to look for some new workout pants on the internet today. There is nothing on base and I had to hold my pants up the entire time I was dancing around. That or the class would of had a eye full and really I am not that fit yet to do that to the people I have class with.

"Failure is only postponed success...The habit of persistence is the habit of victory." -Herbert Kaufman

Monday, February 8, 2010

Day 117

I received an award from Becky at In The Trenches. I love the blogs that she writes and her youngest daughter is to cute! I also love the bright color of the award. Made my day!

The rules to this award are as follows....

-put the logo on your blog or with your post
-pass the award onto 12 bloggers
-link them!
-let the nominees know by commenting on their blog
-share the love and link back to the person that gave you this award

So after the last award I gave out most people never picked up I am going to be a bad girl, cheat and give it to any of my followers that wants to snag it!!

Today has been an emotional day for me. Thank god Chris comes home Thursday night. I have found a friend that has her own little ways of putting me down here and there and I already am not feeling that hot about myself as it is. I would really love to just go home back to Colorado but that isn't an option. So instead I will put on a smiling face well inside I feel claustrophobic. I literally feel like I am trapped in my own body finding it hard to breath. I have no clue what is wrong with me. As I type this I feel as though someone has there arms wrapped around my throat. It is so painful and all I want to do is curl up and wait. Wait for the feeling to go away.

I went to the gym today and pushed myself at a very fast walk. I wanted to run but every time I started the treadmill sounded as if it was going to die. So I decided to walk very fast for 30 min. I wasn't changing treadmills because that would of made much sense.

I really want to thank Amy, Dawne and Steve for the comments yesterday. They had some really good points and I need to keep a lot in mind. I am not so sure it is the weight loss I want to give up more so the blog. I really don't know. I am just not me lately and I am really sorry.

"Leave nothing to chance. The difference between the championship and merely good team is often the perfection of minor details." -Coach John Wooden

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Day 115 & 116

I really do not know what is wrong with me lately. I am getting bored with everything. I thought that having a blog would push me harder. That reading about other people on the same journey would help me not feel so alone. Instead it has discouraged me. I understand that we are all different and weight loss affects us all so differently but when you try hard and push yourself and you don't see the numbers move as fast as other people week after week it is going to start making you not care. I went back through and looked at all of my weigh ins. In the last 116 days I have only lost more then 2 pounds 3 times. I have given up soda(though that was recent), only eat out maybe 2 times a month. Eat veggies and fruit everyday. Workout and the last couple months with weights and yet I am thanked but the scale with losses that start with 0 then a point. I am deciding on if I should take a break from this blog. It is really starting to bring me down and I feel it is doing the opposite to me know. I am no longer finding joy in coming here. I really don't know what to do.

I will talk to my husband when he gets back and see what he thinks. Maybe I am feeling down because he is still gone and he is my best friend. I tell him everything about this journey yet he isn't here to tell. He gives me just the right amount of reassurance with a little bit of a push to do more. Maybe that is all I need. I need his push or at this point just a hug.

I really have nothing else to write at the moment.Lots to think about right now. I will blog until I talk to Chris though.

"For every failure, there's an alternative course of action. You just have to find it. When you come to a roadblock, take a detour.
" -Mary Kay Ash

Friday, February 5, 2010

Day 114

Here is an update on my Perfect 10.

Work out at least 6 days a week... I am doing good on this one. Going to the gym makes the videos not seem as bad anymore but I do hate them still.

* Do 30 push ups a day & sit up's (yes they will be girly push ups)...The sit ups and push ups were mostly for my arms and stomach because I wasn't going to the gym. Now that I am going to the gym I am using the weight machines and even the ones for my stomach. So I am doing them just not the way I first thought!

* Eat fruit & veggies everyday...No issue here as always. I am always finding ways to add veggies into my diet and I am loving it.

* Drink at least 48oz. of WATER a day...I am drinking more then 48oz of water and as of today I am 18 days freed of any kind of soda. I am feeling much better and my cravings for sweets have gone down since I gave up diet!

*Workout twice a day...I also decided on this because I felt I wasn't getting enough from the videos. The gym is now taking care of that though so I am not working out twice a day.

A fact about me that you may not know is I played the piano for 5 years and at one point I was learning from 3 books at a time. Unfortunately I gave it up and decided to take up kickboxing instead. I needed something that allowed me to move around more.

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Day 113

Today was weigh in day. I was excited but I wasn't. Workouts this week have not been the best and in fact there wasn't even a workout on Tuesday. Either way I only lost .6 of a pound. I swear that I could win an award for the slowest weight loss in history. It's starting to depress me reading all these blogs with 2-5 pound losses every week.

I am working out, watching what I am eating and have even cut soda out completely. I haven't had a soda since Jan. 18th. Fast food is almost nothing. I have had it once since Chris left. I have a goal for my birthday and as it gets closer I am getting more frustrated. Meeting it is looking harder and harder.

Went to Zumba this morning and I felt like I had my butt handed to. She didn't stop. It was an hour straight. We realized today that this was only the 3rd class we have been to and missing class just can't happen. Thanks to the snow it was canceled yesterday.

* I need to remember that I am lower then I have been in long time
* Every little amount that falls off is healthy
* I am down a total of 35.3 pounds from the highest I have ever been
* I have found a love for Zumba that I might have not if I decided the couch was
was better for me
* My husband and I are getting along a lot better now (of course he would have to be

I think I am just having a blah day. My husband won't be home till next Thursday and I am only talking to him every once and awhile. I think it is getting to me finally.

"Time, patience, and perseverance will accomplish all things."

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Day 111 & 112

What a day it was yesterday. I went to Frankfurt with my friend for her follow up appt. and we drove back in a blizzard and winds that moved the cars all over the road. It was the longest day of my life. We left at 930 and I didn't walk into the house until 8. Needless to say I did not exercise. I was going to in the morning but woke with the biggest migraine I have had in awhile. I did pack a lunch and brought 2 water bottles. We only stopped for gas once and I never went in for anything. I am so proud of my self.

Well we were at the doctor yesterday it is interesting to see how the Germans do things compared to the states. Like waiting for an hour to be seen. That would not fly in the states. Here I guess it does. The doctor also informed us in the best English that he could is that Americans are more overweight then Germans because we don't have wheat bread. I think he was a little confused. He also informed us that Army wives are bigger then the men and in American there is healthy and happy and then fat. Well I have seen some really big Germans so I am not sure where he gets all of his info. He said the food here was healthier. I will give him points for the fact that they have fresher food year around and convenience with restaurants isn't here so getting all the junk isn't as easy but there food also is flavorless. I was a little irritated him because he was overweight and in the weighting room there was 3 people that didn't even fit in the chairs. It really amazes me.

There was no Zumba today because of the weather. I was crushed because after being in a car all day I wanted to move but maybe tomorrow. Still did a workout but there wasn't the motivation there like if I had been in a class.

NSV that sucks....My wedding ring has fallen off more then once in the last couple of days. I went to get in purse on Monday and they just slide off into the purse. I might be looking single here soon. Chris has agreed to buy me a ring when I loss all the weight and maintain it for awhile. The maintaining it is all my idea since I am right now unsure what weight I will want to be at.