Tuesday, February 23, 2010
The picture is nothing special. Just something that makes me smile.
It felt great to get back to the gym and I am glad that I went. I did an hour of Zumba and then sat in the sauna for 10 minutes. Oh how I missed the gym. Now I need to talk myself into the weight room. That is an area that I always seem to ignore but I know is something I need and beneficial. This is something that I need to work on and now.
I sometimes wonder why I have put this whole journey on hold this long. Why did I decide that I wasn't good enough to enjoy life the way I used to? I am so happy that I have decided to do this for me. Sometimes I get upset with myself that I have waited so long to do this. How much have I missed out on. How many times because of my weight did I say no to friends. I know that sometimes it was NO one to many times and they stopped calling. I will not live in my regrets that I should of done this sooner. I guess I was not ready then and as much as I wish I had been I am doing so much more this time. I am sticking to it and that makes me happy.
Just now is the first time that I have felt like I have started living again. I smile sometimes when I am getting ready and I find myself complaining because most of my clothes are fitting. It is great. Life is starting to look up. I smile for no reason and I am just feeling good. Having a car again helps though!!