I really do not know what is wrong with me lately. I am getting bored with everything. I thought that having a blog would push me harder. That reading about other people on the same journey would help me not feel so alone. Instead it has discouraged me. I understand that we are all different and weight loss affects us all so differently but when you try hard and push yourself and you don't see the numbers move as fast as other people week after week it is going to start making you not care. I went back through and looked at all of my weigh ins. In the last 116 days I have only lost more then 2 pounds 3 times. I have given up soda(though that was recent), only eat out maybe 2 times a month. Eat veggies and fruit everyday. Workout and the last couple months with weights and yet I am thanked but the scale with losses that start with 0 then a point. I am deciding on if I should take a break from this blog. It is really starting to bring me down and I feel it is doing the opposite to me know. I am no longer finding joy in coming here. I really don't know what to do.
I will talk to my husband when he gets back and see what he thinks. Maybe I am feeling down because he is still gone and he is my best friend. I tell him everything about this journey yet he isn't here to tell. He gives me just the right amount of reassurance with a little bit of a push to do more. Maybe that is all I need. I need his push or at this point just a hug.
I really have nothing else to write at the moment.Lots to think about right now. I will blog until I talk to Chris though.
"For every failure, there's an alternative course of action. You just have to find it. When you come to a roadblock, take a detour." -Mary Kay Ash