Thursday, February 25, 2010
I knew getting on the scale this morning was not going to be good. I mentally prepared myself because I knew if I didn't then it would just mess up my day.I was right. I was up 2.7 pounds. I thought about not writing my blog to hide what had happened but you know what. I know what I did wrong. Did I really expect the scale to show me some love when I did not show my body any love? I am not OK with my gain but I am at peace with it. I know every wrong move that put me where I am on this weigh in.
I really feel like I am changing emotionally. As much as I hate to admit this when I would have a gain previously I would not work out that day and sometimes I might even eat everything because the scale already went in the wrong direction so why bother stopping now.
Not today though. Today I went to the gym early and did weights for 35 min. before I did Zumba. It felt good to left weights. I hate that area of the gym but I need to overcome it. Tomorrow is the treadmill and more weights.
Since I go to the gym with a friend if her husband wants her to stay and eat lunch with him then we do. Now that my husband is back he is joining us. Its kinda nice considering he leaves every morning at 520 and most of the time doesn't get home till after 6. I feel like I never see him. Now staying for lunch I am. Today I walked in and he asked me what I wanted to eat. Guess what I choose.... NOTHING!! I displayed total self control. Everyone was eating around me and I had my water. I took a bite of nothing. It was hard at first smelling it but I got into the conversation and next thing I knew I didn't even realize they were eating. I did buy a couple protein shakes that I figure I can take and drink. That way I am not hungry and do something stupid like given in. I mean clearly I need to work on myself control but if there is anything I learned I truly and not upset with the scale and it feels good and gives me a sense that I know I can get it down, I will and I will make changes to my eating.
I am truly in a good place with myself and I promise myself to give it all I have to get back on track and get the loss I know I can do next week.
"I can't imagine a person becoming a success who doesn't give this game of life everything he's got." -Walter Cronkite