I had such high hopes for the New Year. I was going to do my new video The 30 day Shred, take measurements, weigh myself and so on. I was ready to start 2010 off right.
Well needless to say that did not happen. I went with Chris to this guys house up the street for New Years Eve. It was just us, another guy and the couple that lived there. Well the drinking games came out and the shots followed and to be honest I can't remember how many shots I did after the 5th one. They brought out chips and dip but I had no problem avoiding those. Plan one down the drain of not eating. It was just so nice to get out of the house. Besides going to Marcelle's for the couple days that is all I have done since I got here in July.
A couple hours before we left the house though I was told by my mother that my cousins step daughter committed suicide. She was 14.That hit me hard. More the fact that I have a 10 yr. old daughter. Judy was only 4 yrs. older. How did no one know what was wrong. Makes me worry about the signs I could miss. Children are no longer children now a days. They have to grow up way to fast and it is to much for them. I had a nice talk with Marcelle about it yesterday though and that helped a lot.
Yesterday I also started the New Year with my period. The one that has been missing for 20 something days. It came with a bang. I did nothing yesterday besides lie on the coach. It hurts so bad every time I move. It seems when I miss one the next one takes everything out of me. I also hate to admit but I ate a lot of cheese. I was craving cheese.
I had no exercise yesterday and hurt really bad today but I had to get up and shovel. Chris wasn't going to be home until after 10 this morning and I knew I couldn't wait that long. So I shoveled and that is going to have to count as my workout today.
So I learned that even though we make plans they get tossed aside. I told my husband if how the year started has anything to do with the rest of 2010 I am not looking forward to it. I know that shouldn't be my attitude but let me wallow around right now. I know its a mix of my hormones and the first death in the family that I can't be there for. I will be better in a couple days and ready to tackle 2010 how it should be done but right now I just want to go home.