Sorry it has been awhile since I updated. Chris was leaving for a month and I wanted to spend time with him. We also had a lot to do before he left. Needless to say I really have to figure something out balance wise. I got up on Friday and exercised early knowing that we would be gone most of the day. I haven't exercised since unless you want to count the snow shoveling. Was I having fun instead.Nope. Do I wish I could redo this weekend.YES.
Why is it that I am so afraid to stand up for myself. Why can't I get the nerve to ask for the TV to exercise. It's not like playing video games or watching movies is that important. I am struggling with this journey this go around. Maybe it is to make me stronger. I can no longer run to the gym like I used to or exercise upstairs.
I fight a battle in my head everyday telling myself that I need to exercise. I never used to be like this and it bothers me. I used to love exercising. Now I dread it. I was left a comment to go on a walk. Bundle up and go. Well after walking to the bank yesterday and the market to get a few things I felt better and told myself get up tomorrow and go on a walk. Yesterday it was 2 degrees & the snow was melting. Today it is snowing and hard. I did shovel though so I was outside which seemed to help.
I drank my last soda last night. What a sad sad night. I am sure Chris is glad that he won't be around for the withdrawal I will face. I have tried to quit before. I know soda is bad yet I always come back. I tell myself Chris smokes & drinks so soda is nothing compared to that. What I should be worrying about is my body. The health of it and the 10 year old that depends on me.
So instead of mourning my loneliness of Chris going away. I am going to take this month for myself. There will be no more soda, no Popeyes, I will get my exercise in. There will be small, lite, healthy dinners and we will see what happens. I have a mini goal in mind for my birthday. A weight that I would love to see. Hopefully this month will help me get there!
I am stocked with my new yogurt...free from Aspartame!
Quick question: Any recipes out there for the use of pumpkin? I opened a can to make Chris's Bday cheesecake & I have a lot left over.
"If we are to achieve results never before accomplished, we must expect to employ methods never before attempted." -Francis Bacon