I have an obsession, fixation, an addiction or whatever you want to call with the scale. Not a day goes by that I don't step on it. Even when I am on my period and I know that it will show a gain or when I am at Marcelle's house and I have no clue what I weigh anyways because it is in kilos. Either way I step on the scale. Sometimes more then once in a day.
This has it's pros and cons. One of the pros is I feel more in control of my journey. One of the cons is well what happened today. I got on the scale like I do everyday and it still hasn't moved from last Thursday. I told my cousin that 4 pd. loss was going to have more pressure on me then I wanted. I can't get the scale to move. I am working out, drinking my water, and I even felt like my food was better.
My issue with weight loss has always been and still is when I get discouraged I want to throw in the towel. I get in the I am threw. What am I doing that is so wrong? Why is that other people can lose weight but I am struggling. I even got so down today that I thought about stopping my blog.
I walked away from it for awhile and thought about it. Then realized that this is a journey. No one is going to go through this without a bad day or bad weigh in. We are human. Yes throwing in the towel would be so much easier but even though I wish I could have marvelous weigh ins and not battle with the scale everyday there is a reason that I am losing at the rate I am.
I have been looking at more videos today. I think I need to mix it up more. Give my body more variety. When I belonged to a gym my schedule was Mon. & Wed. morning where cardio & weights & the evening was water aerobics. Tues & Thur. morning was water aerobics that were different from the evening and Fri. morning was cardio and racquetball. That is what I miss. All the variety. I think I might need to mix in a few different videos. I found this great site that lets me watch short clips of them so I know what I am getting into.
I have to stay strong. I am so afraid right now I might just throw in the towel.
"Habit is either the best of servants or the worst of masters" -Nathaniel Emmons