Oh how I really don't want to write this but what is the point of ignoring it right. I have tried but it haunts me. You would think hiding something from people that you don't personally know would be easy but it isn't for me.
Christmas day I think I ate everything I put my eyes on. The day stated good. I had yogurt with oats. Then it went to hell. I had popcorn,tomato soup, pumpkin cream cheese spread on graham crackers, turkey, stuffing, potatoes, and them a piece of double pumpkin cheesecake (which I made and was less then 150 cal. a slice).
Do you see what I mean. I should of never ate all of that. I got on the scale today and I was down but I am praying that it doesn't hit tomorrow which I think it will. Today I have had no trouble not eating everything. I had my three meals and nothing else.
I am 20 days late with no cramps at all but food wise I am either starving some days or not hungry. I told my husband that it is driving me nuts. Yesterday was the first time that I just didn't feel satisfied at all. It was a really wired feeling. It was like I was eating but it never hit my stomach. I never want that feeling again. I don't have much time to make sure that I go into the New Year without a gain. That is my goal. I don't expect to lose after the day I had but I refuse to have a gain. I have to work but butt off this week. I am starting 2010 right!
As of this morning when I got on the scale I weigh the same amount I weighed when I walked down the isle July 25,2008. I already weigh less then when I married him the first time in 2006. There is no turning back now!
Now I need to make new goals for 2010!