Friday, December 11, 2009

Day 58

If you don't do what's best for your body, you're the one who comes up on the short end. Julius Erving

I think this is something I am going to have to tell myself everyday for awhile. Today I felt like staying in bed. I don't want to get up. I just want to cry in the dark.I don't care if I eat or eat everything. I don't care if I exercise either. I have no clue what is going on. I hate being like this to. I want to be the happy wife/mother but right now I could care less if dinner is on the table.Don't worry it always is.

Exercise was hard for me to do but I did it. It took about an hour for me to get motivated and I know that this is something I need to stay on top of. I refuse to fall off and have to start over. Any suggestions on how to get over this hump? Hopefully getting out of the house will help but tomorrow the high is 0 so we will see. I might freeze to death but I guess it will be good to get out. We are going to Regensburg. It is a beautiful place. Here is a picture I took from last time we were there.

I am cutting this short as I really don't know what to say.


Marcelle said...

You sounding like me and I'm struggling - every day is a struggle for me as well...but I am winning, I have to win this battle and so do you.
It will do you the world of good to get out tomorrow...dress up warmly and have a fun time, its possible with the cold weather if you dressed correctly.
I was telling H that you feeling so down at the moment...we need to plan our get together as H is on leave soon..but I need to know if you interested or not in the mood...if you are then you and I need to start planning.

CINDER said...

Fresh air will do you a world of good- it is int the low teens here and I struggle with the same thing but once you get out in the air you seem to clear your head. ALso I was reading on your other blog about the hubby- that can have a huge effect on you also- I know when my DH is not his normal self is sends me almost into a panic...(then I give into my issues with food) dont' give up- I am keeping you in my prayers even though I don't know you well I feel for you,and you need to know someone is talking to angels about you! You can be a great wife and mom- YOU are the one who can or can not- the choice is for you!

dawne said...

I wish I was closer to visit with you. I know what that feels like. I had never felt that way until I moved abroad. No matter how nice Germany is, it's not home and you're far away from home at a special season. It's not easy being a wife to a husband stationed abroad. Let yourself feel and grieve, but I can guarantee you overeating as a response to the stress only causes more grief! Thinking of you!

Fran said...

I hope today was a nice day and that you're feeling better. I can imagine living in a "strange" country away from your family isn't always easy. So it's okay that you have a day off every now and then. Just don't let it get to you too much.