Day 19

I have a confession to make. I bought a diet Pepsi on Saturday after I made my husband bring me one on Friday. I crave soda. I know that I should not drink it but I love it. Funny thing is growing up I never really had any until I was in 5Th grade if I remember right and I didn't really care for it. If I did want it it was 1 one the weekend and that was OK. I think I will blame it on my 5+ years being a manager at Taco Bell and having a soda machine right there.

So I was thinking and I told my husband I don't think I crave sweets I think I crave soda which has me running around like a mad woman looking for something. It was supposed to be that time of the month last week & I would of bet money it was coming. I was craving food and hurt so bad but still nothing. Then I remembered last time I up'd exercise & lowered food intake I was almost 2 months late but these cravings.

Here is the plan. I will buy a 24 pack of diet soda once a month & only once a month. That way I am not having it everyday but that way I don't go to the market well my husband is at work and spend 7 euro on ice cream, soda and German dessert. If I want one then it will be here and if I run out way to early then I should have made better choices. I can not go cold turkey on soda. I always go running right back. Now I know why my husband can't quit smoking though his problem is worse then mine. What do you think?

Today I did the next section of my video. I pulled my hamstring. I am limping through the house. I am so pissed. I felt great doing it and half way through the new part of the video I came down on my right leg wrong. I better feel better tomorrow.

I want to go home in June. Really bad. I took my goal weight & divided it with the months I have left and I need to lose 6.5 pounds every month to go home and shock people. I feel a whole new sense of energy. Of I can do this. I just have to work hard at it but I can!