Day 45,46 & 47

I received another award from Marcelle. If you haven't read her blog you should check it out. She is a real inspiration. I want to look like her. She is such a great person always answering any questions I have about anything. She also started this great group called Seeking A Healthy Lifestyle. It is a great group where she gives us little projects to do with weight loss.

As much as I love giving out awards I only have a few followers so if you want it take! You do have the best blog. That is why I am reading it.

This weekend was so so. I tried watching what I ate but I love leftovers. I guess the scale will let me know on weigh in day. I worked out today. I did my Biggest Loser video with weights and played alittle Wii. Right now I don't have the Wii Fit because I just bought a couple videos and feel guilty if I haven't used them.

I see the holidays are going to be harder for me to get through but I can do it. I have to. For me. Chris has made me a couple promises if I lose the weight. I want to focus on those. I love having to put my clothes in the dryer right now because they are getting to big.

Hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving !

Day 43 & 44 - Weigh In

OK so I totally forgot to weigh in yesterday. I am all off on the day. When Chris & Rachelle are home for some reason I think it is the weekend. I will be off until Monday because that is my luck.

I weighed in this morning (Fri.) and have avoided writing this blog. From last weeks weigh in on Thursday I have lost nothing nor have I gained! From Tuesdays weigh in for the Christmas challenge I have gained 1.2 pounds. Since my weigh in Tuesday morning I had Rachelle's Burger King dinner and Thanksgiving. Somewhere I went wrong and I see that I am going to struggle through the Holidays. I have Christmas left and I am good till Easter.

I even went for a 1.5 mile walk yesterday. It is things like this that really get me down. I was really excited with my Tuesday weigh in but I see I am going to have to watch it more and more. Yesterday I ate 1 egg white and 1/2 cup of pistachios and then the Thanksgiving dinner which involved no sweets or bread. All I had was turkey, stuffing, green beans, mashed potatoes with gravy and one hard boiled egg minus the stuff in the middle.

Oh the joys of weight loss.

Day 42

From Friday to Tuesday this is what I was cooking and surrounded by.





Granted the cupcakes went out of the house the next day there were 3 left over. I threw away what was left of the cake from the party but now I have a entire cake from last night.

I am going to assume that I will also throw away most of the last cake. I feel like I am wasting food and I know this is because as I was growing up there were always starving children else where. That's why I had to eat all my food. I have had to think long and hard and have finally come to realize that it is OK if I can't eat everything and have to throw it away. As bad as I feel about throwing food away it is part of the reason I am where I am now. I have made a great effort to change that with Rachelle. If she can't finish it all that's OK.

On another note after I frosted the cake I was running the knife over the frosting. HOLY CRAP they give you to much frosting. I ended up taking more back off the cake.Something else I would of never done before.


I know it doesn't look like alot but trust me its alot. Makes my tummy hurt just looking at it.

Last night was Burger King. My husband brought me home a Whopper with cheese,no mayo or ketchup & fries.He tries but he was having a really bad day and just wanted to come home.Brought me a bigger burger then I needed. I decided to take the bread off.Cut more calories that way and added hot sauce. I also added hot sauce to my fries. Then I threw some of the fries away. Yes I threw away fries. I was getting full so I just stopped well I was ahead. There would of been no way I could of ate the burger if I kept the bread on.

Before I moved to Germany I went gluten free for almost a month so that was the way I ate every hamburger and I enjoyed it more because I could taste everything else besides the bread. I am really trying hard to not waste my calories on food that I can live without. I worked out today and it felt great. Weigh in is tomorrow. Fingers crossed.

Day 41- Countdown to Christmas Weigh In

I lost 2.8 pounds this week. I have alittle over 3 pounds to go and even though that doesn't seem like it is alot it is also the worst time year to keep the weight off. Holidays and birthdays.

I know I can do it because looking at myself in the mirror will make me alot happier then looking at a full plate of food. I mean that is what leftovers are for. If I want turkey that much I can just have some more the next day!

I worked out today. Not a long video like I wanted but I had presents to wrap, a cake to decorate,cleaning, ect.. I am just happy that I got a video in.

We are having Burger King for dinner tonight so I need really think this one out. So far today I have had a banana and a small tortilla with cheese and hot sauce. I know I am telling my husband no mayo and ketchup when he brings it home but I bet it will still be on there.

I checked my BMI today and I am happy to say that I am now overweight. I am no longer obese. Next goal is to be healthy.Tomorrow I will update my eating from today.

Day 39 & 40

It is going to be a busy week this week. Between Rachelle's birthday and Thanksgiving but I am not going to let that get to me. I have come to realize a couple times I was waiting way to long to eat. It's like I go from not being hungry to starving. I am going to have to work on that. Maybe make a lite meal at the beginning of the week for lunches so that I am eating healthier.

I wanted to work out today but I am so sore from this damn Wii. I really don't understand. You would think that I was lifting weights. I am going to work out tomorrow as I was busy today making cupcakes and cake. I am doing good not tempting myself. Friday I made a cake for Rachelle's birthday and did not even have a piece. The rest went in the trash today. As much as I hate throwing food away I can't keep using it as an excuse to eat it. Rachelle doesn't need to finish it either. Of course there is another cake for tomorrow for her birthday so we will start again.

With Thanksgiving on Thursday I am not going to make sweets at all. This will be a first and she isn't happy with me but there is only 3 of us. I need to think long term here.

I had my husband measure me when I started this on day 1. He was supposed to measure me at a month but was gone so he measured me last night. I lost an inch in the arms,thighs,hips.I have lost 3.25 in the waist and my bust has stayed the same. I am so happy. I knew I lost inches because I can take my pants off with them still zipped up and buttoned. The measurements justified it.

Day 38

I received an award from a wonderful blogger Marcelle. She has been on the weight loss journey and kicked it's ass! Her after pictures put my pictures of being in high school to sham. I love the suggestions she has and it seems like she is always there for anyone that needs her. Thanks Marcelle!!!


The Rules & Regulations are as follows:

-Each Superior Scribbler must in turn pass the award on to five most deserving blogger.

-Each Superior Scribbler must link to the author and the name of the blog from whom s/he has received the award.

-Each Superior Scribbler must display the award on his/her blog, and link to The Scholastic Scribe, which explains the award.

-Each blogger who wins The Superior Scribbler Award must visit this post and add his/her name to the Mr Linky List. That way, they'll be able to keep up-to-date on everyone who receives this prestigious honour.http://scholastic-scribe.blogspot.com/2008/10/200-this-blings-for-you.html

-Each Superior Scribbler must post these rules on his/her blog.

I am going to give this award to...

Dawne. She always writes blogs that make you really think and is on the right track for weight loss.
Lacey.She may be my cousin but she got me started here and her blogs make me laugh my butt off and feel like I am right there not missing anything.
Kari. She has alot of great things to write and we have even started emailing outside of blogging.She is a great gal.
Jennifer. She follows me on my other blog but let me tell you the stories she has. You have to make over to her blog on a Thursday and you won't regret it I promise.
Lindsay. She has a weight loss blog that I love to read. She puts it out there like it is and it is great. She just became a homeowner and starting a new job but she's got this!!

I love all of your blogs. Hope you guys all have a great weekend!!

As for my day it went well considering we had a bday party but I will get to that later.

Day 37

I woke up this morning with a sore leg. Not sure why. So I did my Power Tae Bo video and 20 crunches. I think I am going to start doing 20 crunches after every work out. All I need is my stomach to stick out further then my butt..lol

I was also thinking about doing weights well I read every ones blog. Maybe one arm at a time for 1 minute each arm then go back and fourth.Just a thought.

On another note during my complaining yesterday about not losing enough weight at a time another blogger suggested I round my numbers if they are above .5.Maybe I should shave or something. As much as I want to, I feel like I would be lieing to myself if I did that. I know when I used to weigh in with Weight Watchers what the
scale said is what they wrote. There was no rounding of the numbers. So my question is to round or not to round for me?

Tomorrow is chelle's party and sleepover. So we will have cake and for dinner pizza. This should be intresting. I know I can do it though because I have you wonderful blogger friends to keep me on the right track! Thank you guys!!!

I have been reading up on Zumba. Has anyone ever done Zumba? I love the upbeat music (reminds me of home) and it would give me something new to do besides the normal workout videos.

Day 36 - Weigh In

Today the sun was shinning again. I can't believe it. Two days in a row. So instead of doing my video again I went for a walk. I am starting to feel like I am cheating on my videos.lol. I did about 2 miles again. It felt great and was warmer then yesterday.

Weigh in day was today and I lost 1.7 pounds. I am really getting tired of these almost 2 pound loses. I mean don't get me wrong. I am happy with a lose. I don't think anyone really is happy with there loss. Many blogs I read are getting upset with there 2-5 pound loss a week and here I am always so close to 2 but not there.I don't mean to come across upset I am just discouraged. I would give anything for a 2-5 pound lose but I will have love the fact that I lost weight again. I have 43.4 pounds to go still.

I just need to remember slow but steady.So far it has been steady.

Last night I was hungry but there was no way that I was eating so I watched dance movies. Save The Last Dance,Honey and Take the Lead. There is nothing better to cure wanting to eat then watching skinny women dancing. There was no way I was putting food in my mouth. I want to look like them. It worked to!

Day 35

The sun was out today and I felt like I had so much energy. It is amazing how just seeing the sun shining gives you a sense of energy.I was out the door in 5 minutes. I was supposed to do a cardio video today but after seeing the sun I decided to go for a 2 mile walk. I mean I never get out anymore so I was game.

The wind picked up and it got a little chilly as I climbed up the hill but I finished. My throat hurts now though. Lesson learned I need to wrap up more because even though the sun is out doesn't mean it stays warm. Either way it was great to do something other then a work out video and I loved the fresh air. Nice change from looking at my walls.

Tomorrow is weigh in day. If it reads what the scale said this morning I will be happy!!

This Saturday brings chelle's birthday party, Tues. is her birthday and then Thanksgiving. Can you imagine the calories that could be consumed if I went into this without a plan. Already I am trying to figure out what to do with two cakes. I have to make one for the party Saturday and Tuesday. Should be intresting. Chris isn't into sweets and I am not into cake. Maybe I will send him with some to work. As I am writing this I rememeber that I am also making cup cakes Monday for school. This will be more baking then I have ever done in my life. Least I will get it out of the way for the year.

Day 34 - Countdown to Christmas Weigh In

Today I lost one pound so I am down 9 pounds and I have 6 pounds to go till Christmas. I will weigh in on Thursday again for my normal weigh in day.

I woke up this morning and I was so sore. That made me so happy. I knew then that what I did with the weights yesterday really worked. It wasn't all in my head about feeling like I was doing something. Today I did a 30 minute Ab video. It took everything I had to do it but I did it and felt great.

Food was great today until after dinner when chelle wanted dessert. Here is a look at what I had.








Lunch was 2/3 cups eggs whites with fresh mushrooms, red pepper, tomato and hot sauce. Dinner was 1 cup tomato soup(made w/ water which I hate) and one piece of whole wheat bread with 1/2 tablespoon of butter,fresh mushrooms,red pepper,tomato and one piece of low fat cheese.



Dessert was 1 cup of ice cream & 1/2 cup of homemade baked apple sauce. Needless to say that was way to much and I will be doing my power tae bo video after I put chelle to bed at 8:30. Yes I will jumping around tonight because I feel yuck and next time I will cut that dessert in half. I know I am fine with what all I ate but I think I just got a sugar overload.

I wanted to end this with something I was told in Weight Watchers.

BREAKFAST IS ONLY MEANT TO GET YOU TO LUNCH
LUNCH IS ONLY MEANT TO GET YOU TO DINNER
DINNER IS ONLY MEANT TO GET YOU TO BREAKFAST

There is no reason you need to eat everything in sight. You will eat again. Meals are only meant to get you to the next one. Do not eat every meal like it is your last. You will get another one, I promise!

Day 32 & 33

Sunday I worked out. I did my power workout. Wow it is hard getting back in to working out when I haven't been. With Rachelle sick I have been dealing with that. I made really bad choices eating Sunday and realized I really need to write out what I am going to eat that morning or the night before. I am really bad at waiting until the last minute to eat. Then it goes all down hill from there. I need to change that and NOW.

Today I did my Biggest Loser Cardio Video with weights. Holy Crap. I mastered that video weight free. Adding weights was great. I felt like I was actually doing something. It was the greatest pain I have ever felt.

I decided that I wanted a grilled cheese for lunch but I never fill up from them so I added fresh mushrooms,red bell pepper & tomato. It was great and I think that I am going to start making them this way. I was full when I was done. For snack today I had 1/2 cup pineapple. Dinner was 1/2 cup of pot pie. I will eat something later. Now that my husband is gone I am all thrown off. I was up till 3 this morning and slept till 1 so i guess I am behind a meal.

Tomorrow is a new day and a different video with weights! I am also hoping that figuring out what I want to eat before the last minute will help. I guess only time will tell.

Day 31

Today we went to base to get some grocery's for chelle and I as Chris leaves tomorrow morning and will be gone all week. I wanted tomato soup because chelle and I love tomato soup & grilled cheese for dinner. It is "our" thing whenever he is gone. Well they were out of the reduced sodium & the 98% fat free. I am really sick of them always being out of stuff. So we bought 2 cans of the regular and I will just eat less of the soup I guess.

We had lunch there and I ate Subway but instead of the baked chips that I got last time and did not like I got the mashed potatoes from Popeye's. When the calories match up and the fat is off by 2 I will eat what I like better. I mean I did give up the biscuit and the spicy chicken strips. On the sandwich I got the lite mayo but after watching her put it on I have decided that I need to either A)skip it all together or B) tell them lite on lite mayo which I am sure they won't get. I guess I'll go with option A.

I got on the scale this morning and let me tell you I am in a new section of the weight! I know you have no clue what I am talking about since I am not brave enough to put my weight out there but I am 5.8 pounds away from my wedding weight. I am so happy!!! I just want to keep clicking along. I bought weighted balls today to tone my arms well doing some of the videos. I am starting tomorrow since Chris will be gone.Hopefully adding weights will help move the numbers or the inches! So close to the weight in these pictures yet so far.

Day 30

I got to work out today! She was feeling a little better so she let me work out and boy it felt great! Tomorrow we have alot to do as Chris leaves Sunday for a week so I am not sure if I will get to work out tomorrow but I will have a week for just me. I think I might go meatless that week. I have read that you should skip eating meat once a week. Not in this house. My husband doesn't care what we eat but it has to have meat. That is the one thing he asks for. Hopefully a week of no meat might help. It will also be lower calorie dinners because it will just be chelle and I.



Breakfast/lunch was egg beaters with mushrooms,avocado and hot sauce.


Dinner was chicken pot pie. "Healthified" version!!Not store bought. Hope everyone has a great weekend!!

Day 29- Weigh Day

Thursdays are my normal days to weigh in so here it goes. I lost 1.9 pounds. Oh so close to 2 whole pounds. Sometimes it drives me nuts. I am into whole numbers and I am not sure if anyone notified the scale but 1.9 is not 2. Oh well, maybe next week. I am down to only needing to lose 45 pounds total!

Since chelle is sick still I decided to wash everything in her bedroom, mop all the floors and Lysol everything.Scrubbed the heck out of the bathroom.Nice little work out.

I wanted to work out today but chelle is still sick and every time I left the room she was upset. Just letting me clean was driving her nuts. She just wants me to stay with her so I will. I will just eat less to make up for no gym.

Hope everyone has a great day!

Day 28

Today was not anything how I had it planned. I feel like I am on a roll then all of a sudden something changes. Chris was given today off which was nice. Rachelle is sick. So sick she was crying this morning. That is nothing like her. We can only work one heater in the house so far (German heating is diff. then the states). She has the chills so she is on the living room floor. My work out space is where she is right now. So workout for today is zero. It sucks but what can you do when you have a sick child in the only area you can work out. I really miss the states sometimes. There I had a gym and a big house with more room.Oh and a heating system I knew how to work.

So today I ate leftover chili for lunch and dinner. I seem to not eat as much when my husband is around. I feel the need to impress him. Anyone else ever do that? Eat differently when you around certain people. As a result I have a headache though.

Tomorrow is my weigh in day so we will see how that goes. The monthly visitor needs to take a hike. I step on the scale every morning. Lets me know where I am at. Let that "time of the month" come and I will avoid the scale if all possible. I hate the scale with a passion for that one week. You guys are counting on me though no matter what so I will step on the scale. Just for you! Don't you all feel so special.

Day 23-27

I have been missing but I am still here. I haven't felt well and sitting up with the computer wasn't my idea of fun so I watched movies. I hate to admit but I didn't work out Friday to Monday. Come to find out I was beginning to get the monthly visitor. The one I hate. It seems when it is late it hurts me worse.

I worked out today though. A shorter video but I did work out and added some weights. I also did a little yoga today to. To keep me moving some and not just laying from pain I was in the kitchen cooking it up. I made baked applesauce, homemade chili and my daughters favorite fresh fruit salad. Kept me busy and moving. Bad note is it is 540pm and all I have had is a grilled cheese today. I guess that is good in away considering I was around food!

Today is my weigh in day for Countdown to Christmas. As much as I did not want to get on the scale considering my visitor I did and I am down 2.8 pounds. I have seven pounds to go. I know I can do this. I have to. I have to for me. I am excited to see what I can get my weight down to for my daughter's bday on the 24Th. I like to use important dates. It pushes me.

Hope everyone had a great weekend!

Day 22 -Weigh Day

It was another loss for me!! I am not excited about the amount but when I do think about it it is average, I hope. 1.8 pounds down. So close to 2 pounds yet so far away. 7 total pounds by my third way in. 7 pounds lighter then I have been since Dec. 2008. I can't wait to see what I am going to weigh this December. I'm the lowest I have been in almost a year. Hopefully I will be at least be 5 pounds lighter be December.

I am on the way to new healthy me and I won't have to start out the New Year with the stupid resolution of wanting losing weight. I am already on that journey and I am not looking at it as a diet. I am looking at it as a new lifestyle. I want to lower my risk of diseases. I don't want to refuse to go to the doctor because if I go then I would have to step on a scale & that's no fun. I want to get dressed in the morning and go. Not change 2 to 5 times before I decide which "fat" outfit looks the best.

I am tired of looking at clothes thinking one day. I want one day to be right now. I want to order clothes off of the Internet. To have my picture taken and not break into a sweat trying to suck it all in everywhere. I want to enjoy life. This is the one chance I get at it and I am tired of regretting not taking pics with loved ones or enjoying going out. In fact my husband complained awhile back that we have no pictures of us together so we take one wherever we go but it is painful for me. I want people to think of me as the girl that did it all & wasn't afraid to have fun.

Day 21

As I look at my weight loss I am not to impressed. I feel like I should be further along but I am happy for loss and not gain. I can not wait until this weekend so that I can go get hand weights. I am really praying that it will help my journey along.

I am not great with slow weight loss. I know it comes on easy and falls off SLOW. This is where I get discouraged. I have to keep going though. My body deserves better. I am in this for the long run. I mean it is not like I can go body shopping for a new one. It just seems like everyone is losing large number of pounds at a time and I am not. That makes me wonder what I am doing wrong.

I have decided to change up my workout instead of doing the same one every day. I know that can't help and the same one all the time drives me nuts. So here is my new list for now.

Monday~ Biggest Loser Cardio Max

Tuesday~Billy Blanks 12 Power Rounds

Wednesday~Billy Blanks Tae Bo Extreme

Thursday~Billy Blanks AB Boot Camp

Friday~Billy Blanks Cardio Boot Camp

Sat. & Sun. are up in the air. Either a walk or a video or nothing depending on if my husband is around. I will do this for awhile until I want to switch it up but I would say that this is going to be good for awhile.Hopefully on Monday I can add weights!

Day 20- Countdown to Christmas

Today I called one of my good friends back home. W h haven't known each other for more then a little over a year but we became inseparable. Anyways she just got a call yesterday that her grandpa was ready to die. He passed away today but she will take great care of him. She is a funeral director and Embalmer. It is written in the will she will fly home and do the embalming. I know that the family will feel better knowing that family took care of him all the way to the end.

I worked out today but I only did the 20 min. power round video. Hopefully tomorrow will be all better. My hamstring did not throb to bad.

I have decided that when I do reach my goal I am going to order somethings from Fredrick's of Hollywood. I love that place. Granted the things on there models will never look like that on me I love what they have so that is what I will do for myself when I hit my goal weight.



I am joining the Christmas Challenge with Dawn. I think that it is really a good idea.

The Rules

1. Choose a specific, realistic goal that you can achieve by December 25TH.

2. Post weekly updates (you choose the day) about your progress.

3. Decide on a gift (reward) that you’ll give yourself when you meet your goal.

1. My goal for Dec. 25th is going to be 15 pounds for my total. Hopefully I can get some free weights this weekend. I think I need something more to add to my work out. That puts me at only needing to lose 9.8 pounds. I am trying to keep in mind that I am not as active as I once was.lol

2. I will post every Tues. and have my regular weigh in on Thursday

3. As for a gift I have no clue. Maybe a new pair of shoes or a movie. I am limited here.lol

Hope you will join us and thanks Dawn for the extra support for the holidays.

Day 19

I have a confession to make. I bought a diet Pepsi on Saturday after I made my husband bring me one on Friday. I crave soda. I know that I should not drink it but I love it. Funny thing is growing up I never really had any until I was in 5Th grade if I remember right and I didn't really care for it. If I did want it it was 1 one the weekend and that was OK. I think I will blame it on my 5+ years being a manager at Taco Bell and having a soda machine right there.

So I was thinking and I told my husband I don't think I crave sweets I think I crave soda which has me running around like a mad woman looking for something. It was supposed to be that time of the month last week & I would of bet money it was coming. I was craving food and hurt so bad but still nothing. Then I remembered last time I up'd exercise & lowered food intake I was almost 2 months late but these cravings.

Here is the plan. I will buy a 24 pack of diet soda once a month & only once a month. That way I am not having it everyday but that way I don't go to the market well my husband is at work and spend 7 euro on ice cream, soda and German dessert. If I want one then it will be here and if I run out way to early then I should have made better choices. I can not go cold turkey on soda. I always go running right back. Now I know why my husband can't quit smoking though his problem is worse then mine. What do you think?

Today I did the next section of my video. I pulled my hamstring. I am limping through the house. I am so pissed. I felt great doing it and half way through the new part of the video I came down on my right leg wrong. I better feel better tomorrow.

I want to go home in June. Really bad. I took my goal weight & divided it with the months I have left and I need to lose 6.5 pounds every month to go home and shock people. I feel a whole new sense of energy. Of I can do this. I just have to work hard at it but I can!

Day 17 & 18

I may have lived in Colorado my entire life but it seems like the cold air here just takes your breath away. The fumes from the car seem to cut off my breathing when I walk outside. Maybe because I usually do not walk on busy streets.

Saturday my husband had to work so chelle & I got out to take pics of some of the places we always go to post on my other blog tomorrow. It was a nice walk only about 20 min but I figure that is better then nothing. I ate a late dinner with my husband and I broke down and made the popcorn. I know weight watchers has 100 calorie butter popcorn but the only thing I find here is kettle corn. Needless to say my mother is on a mission to buy me 10 boxes at a time of this and ship it. A whole bag and only 100 calories who can beat that! Sunday I made hot wings that my daughter loves. I really need to find out the calories and what not but it is in German so I will be figuring that out soon. Dinner I made my husbands favorite potato soup.

I am starting week 3 & 4 on my Biggest Loser Video. Hopefully I will be able to walk. I scanned the next section coming up and my knees hurt just watching it but I know that as I lose more weight my knees will feel better. I also ordered Leslie Sansone Fat Burning Miles. I am hoping that this will help add to my workout. Of course ordering this consists of having it shipped to my mom so she can ship it to me! It will be awhile before I get it but I hope it works. I'll be fine to walk outside next year when it is warm again!I know that I need to mix it up and it looks like getting a Wii fit is going to be harder then I thought. The PX is still out of Wii's. So on our next trip there I will buy some hand weights.

I have also decided that since humans base alot of decisions on site if I want dessert I will put it in a condiment cup/serving dish. It is small but still allows me to have some dessert if I want. Funny thing is the first time I did that I thought this isn't going to work. Sad part was it was the perfect amount. Left me satisfied and not having my stomach hurting. I have also started putting my dinners on smaller plates. I may get funny looks but it helps.

Hope everyone had a great weekend!!