Bye

I just wanted to let everyone know that as of now I am not going to be posting on there anymore. I feel like this is doing more negative for me then positive. I really am getting down watching all the big losses and I hardly have a decent loss, I am having a hard time handling reading blogs about people whining about 2 pound losses when I am lucky to get a 1 pound. I am tired of taking time to comment and get nothing in return. I have been inactive for over a week to see what would happen and only 3 people have wondered where I am. That tells me what I wanted to know. I feel like comments are only left on my blog because I came up in the blog roll. I may come back to this but as of right now I don't feel like I have this great community of support. I mean how do you get support when know one even realizes you are gone? I will still continue to read some blogs because I do hope to see everyone succeed. Right now though my focus will be on my family, the warm months up ahead and if I only update my other blog. Please do not take this the wrong way. Just how I am feeling over this last week. It has really hurt that I have been commenting and know one has asked me why I haven't update my blog.

Day 188

Last night Rachelle decided to try a little Zumba with me. She has to come with me so that I can take her right to soccer after. Now she see's all the fun that I have. I do miss the day class though. The night class is so full.

Came home and went running. I learned that I am unable to give it my all when I eat lunch at 2:30 then I did Zumba from 5-6 ate a banana well Rachelle was at soccer & came home from soccer to run a little after 8. I was running on empty but I still did it. It really amazes me the difference I feel in my feet and legs with proper shoes. Who would of guessed. LOL.

Chris got in this morning around 230am. I am going to try and talk him into going with me on a run tonight but I doubt he will. It will depend what time he gets off tonight.

I have been doing something. Why is it that even though I have lost 33 pounds I sometimes feel more self conscious then before. I was wearing tank tops when I went to run errands after work I don't know why but I was really concerned about how fat I looked. I kept thinking I should of brought a jacket. Who cares if it is 19 outside. I just want to hide my body. It has me thinking will I truly ever be happy with my image. When I was 120 pounds (my true desired goal weight) I thought I was to fat. I won't bore you with what I think of weight now. I hate that feeling. I envy the girls that are carefree, love there bodies and are totally confident!! Now that's a goal to go for.


"A nail is driven out by another nail. Habit is overcome by habit." -Desiderius Erasmus

Day 187

Have you ever had a weekend where you screwed up. You thought you had this figured out then come to find out that you don't. Well you all know that this was my weekend. What worries me now though more then anything is will I be strong enough to maintain when I get there. I am not so sure I am strong enough after the mistakes I made this weekend.

I started out the morning with my buddy.. the scale. I was so upset with myself on Sunday morning I needed to see what today brought. Well I went from being up 4 pds to only being up 1 pd. I will have to put some hard work in to get the scale to move some more by Thursday.

Tonight I hope to go to Zumba. I won't be able to stay the entire time but something is better then nothing!

I wanted to share my workout stats from last week. My calories should be higher because daily mile doesn't give me any for Zumba so the calories I got are only from runs, Saturday & Sunday. Now that I have my HR monitor this will be the first week of correct info. Either way here we go..

7 miles tracked, 7 hrs & 15 min. logged, 2264 calories burned, & 12 workouts. My goal is to beat that this week. Chris does come home tonight & when that happens I usually want to spend time with him & not worry about me. I can't do that anymore because he is always gone. I need to work on me!


If you don't follow Jack Sh*t, Gettin' Fit you need to read today's. He is to funny and I promise today will make you laugh!


"Don't ever take a fence down until you know why it was put up." -Robert Frost

Day 186

Last night I felt like baking. I was ready to die from Zumba but a Upside Down Sunshine Cake sounded really good. So I made one.



Woke up this morning to sore legs. Not as bad as I thought but I was sore. I went on a walk with my daughter this afternoon and a run by myself after dinner. I am hoping to go to Zumba tomorrow night. I will only get to do 45 min. because Rachelle has soccer but it will be 45 min. of fun!

I have made some bad choices this weekend. Enough bad ones to get the scale to do what I don't want it to do. Now I feel like I am in a battle with it by Thursday to get it to go back down. I am really upset with myself. I was doing good and I guess for a minute I thought I could handle it. Lesson learned. This is going to be a battle the rest of my life.

I just want the joy of the number that I saw on Thursday. I know I can get it back. I have to.




"Keep away from people who try to belittle your ambitions. Small people always do that, but the really great make you feel that you, too, can become great." -Mark Twain

Day 184 & 185

Sorry for no post yesterday. I know that I always post from Monday to Friday but yesterday I left the house at 930am and didn't get home until after 11 that night. I have never run around so much and didn't feel like I got anything done.

I made some bad choices yesterday that led to the scale going back up. Showing up at a Greek Restaurant at 10pm to eat dinner was not the smartest idea. I learned my lesson. Not only did it affect the scale but my sleeping.

Today I went to the Zumbathon. It was supposed to be 4 hours but there was a teacher that decided to do a no show and then the sound system didn't work. It turned out to be 2 hours and 40 min. with a total calorie count of 1,503. I think that was good considering I had no clue what 2 of the teachers were doing. I love my heart rate monitor. I wish I would of gotten one sooner. I am very competitive with myself and I have issues with numbers so I see myself rounding numbers and working out more to round that number. This will be good!!!

Tomorrow will only be a walk maybe a run. My legs are really feeling it from today!


Well I am off to catch up on all of your posts.




"Bad habits are like a comfortable bed, easy to get into, but hard to get out of." -Unknown

Day 183 Weigh In

I will be honest I was dreading today. After a weekend away and eating out 3 plus times I was nervous for today. I got on the scale this morning hoping for at least a pound which is a big thing for me. I am down 3.6 lbs!!!!!! Yup I only have 20 more pounds to go till I hit goal!!! I do think I might need to lose more though. When I look at myself I am not sure 20 will be enough but we will see when we get there. I will post a new picture this weekend since I am finally at & over 30 pounds! I owe it all to Marcelle. She has been on me about running and I didn't believe how just running could possibly do much more. Well she proved me wrong. Thank you so much for staying on me Marcelle!!!! I owe you big time!

This Saturday is a 4 hour Zumbathon. Right now my legs are killing me. I think doing Zumba and running everyday has them a little weak. I wanted to run tonight but I think I sill skip today and see how I feel tomorrow. I want to be ready for Saturday!

Remember when I talked about a black box yesterday? Well Marcelle has also been on me about shoes so I treated myself to running shoes. Yup well the hubby is away I will play!

So I got these....



I am in love!!! Bright Pink and black. My to favorite colors. I am in heaven!! I am going to try them out tomorrow!!

OK so that little black box...



Yup it was my heart rate monitor. I can't what to wear it Saturday to see how I do with Zumba. Who would of ever thought getting things like new running shoes and a heart rate monitor would make me so happy!!! My only issue is know my heart rate monitor doesn't match my shoes. Oh well.




I am going out for Mexican food for dinner tonight so we shall see how this goes.


"The measure of a man's real character is what he would do if he knew he would never be found out." -Thomas B. Macaulay

Day 182

It seems like I never have anything interesting to say. I have often thought of closing my blog because I truly believe that I write a crappy blog. I am not creative when it comes to writing. Either way here is some more to bore you. Enjoy!





I love Ramen Noddles. Maybe it is because they are cheap or that I have mastered cooking them in the microwave. Who can beat a one dish meal. I turned them over the other day and about died. The serving size is 1/2 of the block. First off I have a hard of enough time breaking them up in the package before I open it I can just see me attempting to break it in half for a serving. Either way after looking at the nutritional guide it isn't worth it to me. Gone are the days of a cheap fast dinner.



On another note though I have discovered these wonderful perfect 100 calorie serving size bags of popcorn!! They give me my popcorn fix and I don't have to worry about eating more then the portion since the bag is portioned for me.




My next favorite find (because I have nothing better to do in Germany..lol) is these Turkey Burgers. They are perfect to throw together for a healthy meal. In fact dinner last night was one with some baked sweet potato fries topped off with hot sauce. These work perfect for when Chris is gone & I need something more healthy then what I might go for.







Lastly can you guess what I received in the mail today? Guess you will have to wait until tomorrow. Yup, this is my way to get you to come back for more!!!





"Men succeed when they realize that their failures are the preparation for their victories." -Ralph Waldo Emerson

Day 181

I started my day out with Zumba this morning.. I have missed it so much. I wore my arm weights and even though they are only a pound each I sure could feel it in the arms. That brings me to a question. Does anyone have any good recommendations on toning arms. I want tank top arms. I see the rest of my body shrinking but I still need to work on those arms.



Last night I went out to do a run. I like to wait until the evening because the roads are empty. I hate running with so many cars. Right now the weather sucks. It is very cloudy and rainy so running next to all the cars makes it hard for me to breath from the exhaust. Well last night I got outside and it was raining. The old me would of turned right around and went back inside. Not the new me. I went anyway. At one point I though of shorting it but really what is the point if I am already out there. Might as well finish it and I did. I even cut some seconds off the time which is amazing considering I had rain, wind and the cold against me. I hope to try and go again tonight but right now the weather is worse then yesterday & I don't want to make myself sick either.



I can't believe how much things are changing. There still needs to be some more changes in the eating department. I want to try and bring more salads into my eating. I bought a mushroom slicer that I can also use to other veggies. This will cut down time to make a salad which is perfect. I take forever cutting veggies so I never want to make a salad. I love the new scale I bought so I can weigh out my food. It is nice to truly see what 3 ounces of meat is compared to my idea of it.

I am having issues with cheese though. I eat cheese everyday. Granted it is the Weight Watchers cheese I am sure I shouldn't be eating it every day. That is something I need to work on.






"My mother drew a distinction between achievement and success. She said that achievement is the knowledge that you have studied and worked hard and done the best that is in you. Success is being praised by others. That is nice but not as important or satisfying. Always aim for achievement and forget about success." -Helen Hayes

Day 178, 179 & 180

I hope everyone had a great weekend. Mine was nonstop which I am not used to but it was great..minus attepmting the menu again(lol). I will get this one day.

Friday night Chris wanted to walk up the street to an Italian restaurant. I do not really like this place but he loves it. There pasta is nasty and there pizza is so so. I was going to order a pizza with lots of veggies on it. I did. I got a pizza that was on fire. I mean real flames were coming off of the top of the pizza which meant that it had lots of bread and cheese on top. Not great. Live and learn I guess. We walked to the ice cream parlor & I got frozen yogurt.

Saturday was the Nuremberg Festival. We went to lunch first at a Mexican Restaurant. I had..



This was not at all what I thought I was getting. Either way I did not eat the chicken taco. I had the beef taco and some of the burrito. I am really getting frustrated. I do not like the food in Germany and I feel like I am wasting calories. Yet I need to eat.

At the festival I got nothing. Some of that food smelled so good. I wanted some of the pastries so bad but I did not get any. I did take a sip of Rachelle's hot chocolate. It was cold. We also stopped off at the beer tent to warm up and I had to order a Coke. There goes my no soda thing but I did stay away from the diet. They had no regular water or juice. Only beer and carbonated water which I hate. I did leave over half of my soda though because I forgot I hate the way it taste here.

Katherine & I holding our husbands beer

One of the stands at the fair...

Chris in the beer tent...


In the beer tent..



Dinner that night was Subway with water. I had the 6 inch sub. with turkey, veggies, mustard and no mayo.!!

Sunday was another disaster with food eating. Not looking forward to my weigh in on Thursday. For all the military in German you would think they would either had English menus or speak English a little better. That or they are playing dumb because they know we are military. There is no getting out of it with the haircuts on the guys. We stand out...


"Every person, all the events of your life are there because you have drawn them there. What you choose to do with them is up to you." -Richard Bach

Day 177

Last night Rachelle and I went on a walk. Running was not going to happen as I didn't feel well. I knew I did need to get out and do something though. It was nice to take a walk, talk and take some pictures.




Today I bought a new pair of pants and a new shirt. I went down 2 pant sizes! A part of me was scared to try on new jeans and find out I am either the same or down only 1 but nope I was down 2. This is the first time that I have bought new jeans since last year. I bought a shirt in a L. I could of worn a medium but my husband wasn't digging the front porch look in that size. I am an idiot and wore flip flops today so I couldn't try on shoes but I have all next week off for spring break so I will make a point to do it.



We are wanting to go to the Nuremberg Volksfeste tomorrow. I can already see how this could be interesting on the eating plan. We are going to take the train there as everyone says parking is a mess and so expensive. So bringing a cooler with food is not a option. I will eat a good and healthy breakfast and go from there. It is not like I do this every weekend and I am in Germany. I also want to enjoy myself and try new things out.



I do however promise to make the best choices possible. At least to my knowledge! Hope everyone has a great weekend!

"Unless you have tried to do something beyond what you have already mastered, you will never grow." -Ronald E. Osborn

Day 176 Weigh In

OK right to the point. Today is weigh in day. Today I also woke up to my monthly visitor. I was not looking forward to stepping on the scale but I can't avoid that thing. He calls my name. I stayed the same. No loss no gain. Now considering I used to gain during TOM and as I have lost weight I have realized that I have very little gain (ounces) or stay the same. Make me wonder how much a woman really gains from her visitor compared to the gain from the food we crave from the visitor.

Well talking to Marcelle today about running I realized I am running in shoes that are over 7 years old and these..



I am pretty sure Phat Farm shoes do not count as running shoes. Could be why I can feel ever rock I land on. She also asked where that famous heart rate monitor that I keep saying I am going to get is. Well I hate spending money on me. I feel guilty. Plain and simple. I feel I do not do my part now that I am in Germany to spend money on myself. She knocked some sense into me and I am ordering it as soon as I finish writing this. This does have to do with my health. It is not like I am trying to buy jewelery. In fact I am going to look at running shoes tomorrow and jeans. Whats the purpose of losing 30 pounds and dressing like a slob right?

Thanks Marcelle for the talk today. I really needed it. Such a great friend you are.

Now on to the running shoes. They only sell Nike and Adidas on post. Which do you prefer??


"You cannot dream yourself into a character: you must hammer and forge yourself into one." -Henry D. Thoreau

Day 175

Today has been a off day for me. I know that TOM is coming soon which made sense why my tummy has been hurting and I feel bloated but I have felt like getting sick all day. I was getting dizzy and a couple times when I took a step it seemed like my foot was one step behind.

I feel very sick and blah and like the world is spinning so I am cutting this short. Rachelle has soccer practice tonight so I need to rest a little so I drive her.



"It is the man's dreams and his inspiring attempt to make them come true that remain important." -Francis Ford Coppola

Day 174

Thanks for all the info. on things bought this weekend. I took the pedometer & heart rate monitor back last month. They are picky with returning things here so I wanted to get it back since it was so much money.

I swear I am the most indecisive person when it comes to spending more then $20 on myself. I will go back and forth forever worrying about spending money & getting a piece of crap. I should have a heart rate monitor by now but I can't make up my mind.

My eating has been better the last two days. This weekend not so much. We went out for Greek food Friday night. Saturday lunch was Popeye's and dinner was the Tea Garden. That is about two more times a week then I like to eat out. I try for no more then once a week. Here are pictures from the Tea Garden...



Egg Drop soup.. I love this stuff.



My dinner which was chicken & veggies. I did not know that it came with so much sauce. Here I thought I was getting just chicken & veggies. Next time I will attempt to order with out sauce.


On the other hand when I go to the Greek restaurant it is a loss cause. I love there lamb. I order mine without the bone. It is soo juicy. I have never had anything like it. Then the wine leaves. You can't even imagine. It's all so good. I wish they had food like this in states.

"Bad habits are like chains that are too light to feel until they are too heavy to carry." -Warren Buffet

Day 171, 172 & 173

This weekend went by really fast. My husband left today till the 19th though they may bring him home for the 4 day this weekend.

Saturday we had a lot to do. Remember those days when trying to find an outfit sometimes was a pain in the butt? Well somehow I missed the stage when the clothes I have would of fit perfectly. I know take forever trying to find clothes that look half way OK on me. Buying clothes in Germany is expensive. No running to Wal Mart or Ross or even Target. If I buy on the economy I take a loss to convert money and the PX charges more because they have to ship further. In a way Saturday I was depressed. I finally have a body that I am getting more comfortable with & do not find the need to hide under a coat yet now I look like a slob because everything hangs. I can't even play the lottery here...

What my husband did get me this weekend is fun gadgets I can use to push my weight loss a little more. Unfortunately some are going back to the store.

I grabbed this Heart Rate Monitor because it was on clearance. It is clearly marked on the side that once opened it could not be returned. I did some research on it and decided to return it. Once battery pack on the chest strap goes out you have to replace the entire thing. You can't just change the battery's. They cost $40-$50. There was a couple other things I am not really liking.



I wanted to know how many steps I do a day... So I got this.



Took it on a run today and it flew off more then once. The second time it flew off the battery flew out which put me back at 0. Not worth the $20. The steps I took and the steps it counted where off. Pulling my pants up & down also gave me steps. Who would of thought something as simple as adjusting my pants would of given me steps.

These I am keeping.



I will wear them when I run or walk. Days that I can make it to Zumba I will also wear them or any days that I need to do a video. I want to lean up not bulk up so hopefully these will help. I looked at the ones that go on your wrist because I could get them in 2 pounds each but they slide right off. These have a zipper so my husband said he would figure out how to add more weight but I am sure with an hour of Zumba and swinging my arms around I will feel it.


"To grow, you must be willing to let your present and future be totally unlike your past. Your history is not your destiny." -Alan Cohen