Anyone still there?

I am pretty sure I will be writing this to know one. I quit blogging so I understand if this goes nowhere. Right now I am writing to try & get myself out of this rut I am in. These last 13 pounds that I want to lose are going to take forever. It has taken forever so far. I have moved from Germany so no more running at night, no more Zumba 5 times a week. To be honest it sucks. I have joined a gym and I am now doing Spinning, Body Pump, Body Combat, Body Flow, running. Zumba is only once a week. As great as this sounds I do not really love any of these classes. Not the way that I love Zumba. My eating is all over. I am no longer working so I am munching all day which needs to stop. NOW. I need to find a job but I am loving going to the gym in the morning. I feel I have more energy. Ahhh I miss my old life. I have given up diet soda & Crystal Light. I still crave sugar. It is so hard not to go back to the stuff. It kept me full & was 0 calories. I keep reminding myself when I am feeling weak that it isn't so much the 0 calories that it is the crap that is in it. It isn't good for my body. Well I am off for now. I am making my weigh in day Friday with the hopes that the number will keep me good on the weekends!!

Need help...

It is finally Spring Break & I feel like I need to start fresh. The weather is depressing & a couple times today it was snowing. Really, I mean it is the middle of April. We are still unsure of when or where are moving. Hopefully soon. I have been taking notes on weight loss & adding a few more blogs to help get ideas from. Seems that over half the blogs I started out with are no longer out there. I think I am down to about 2-3 & right now I need more. I do Zumba on 4 days a week & was wondering if 3-4 times a week of using the kettlebell would be enough? My running has improved which I am happy & I think that Marcelle would be proud of me. It has taken me a while but I realize that I am one that can not talk at all well running & I keep reminding myself like she taught me to keep my head up!! Also does anyone have a site that they use to figure out how many calories you need a day to lose weight? I can't seem to find one that doesn't give me this ridiculous amount I know I don't need.

Well I am off to Zumba tonight & tomorrow morning even though it is Easter I will be at Zumba!! Leaving you with a pic. from my birthday dinner!

Stuck..

I really wanted to focus on writing on here at least once a week but it seems I am so busy. Not knowing when we move or where I am throwing things out & going through them. I am trying to find time to edit photos. I still have photos from last summer to edit & I took over 300 in London which I swear is the best country I have been to so far. Weather sucked but the people were the nicest I have ever run into. Anyways this is a weight loss blog so back to weight loss....

I am stuck like Chuck on the same number for what seems like FOREVER. I really would like to lose 10-15 pounds more & I think I would be good. I have decided that I will be having surgery to remove the extra skin & my husband & I decided that I need to maintain my weight stateside for a year before I do it. Germany is easier since the fast food choices are limited & not on every corner. Being in the states will be a true test.

Will everything I have learned from Oct. 2009 until now work for me in the states. I pray with everything. I refuse to need to buy a bigger size EVER AGAIN.

I need some help. I eat salads at lunch & well I love salads I need other ideas. I am getting a little tired of the same thing 5 days a week. What are some good lunches to eat at work? My dessert is fruit & soy pudding but I need help with lunch!!

I am leaving you with a photo from London.It was taken at Ripley's Believe it or Not!

London...

Just a quick note to say that I am off to London for a 4 day with another couple minus the kids!!! This will be a nice getaway though eating will be interesting... See you all next week!

Slipping

I have become the person that I had managed to say good bye to for almost 2 years. I am letting the stress of my life get to me. I have not exercised, I have eaten more then I should & things that I should not. I stepped on the scale & I have gained 4 pounds. I need to nip this in the butt right now. I can not allow letting the stress of Army life get to me. Part of being a military family is never knowing anything & then expecting to change everything in a drop if the hat.

My husband just informed me that he can reenlist but we are needs of the Army. A nice way of saying you get to move where we tell you & you have no say... AT ALL. This scares me but I am thankful that they are allowing him to reenlist. That is a big weight off of our shoulders. We should now by the middle of next week.

So honestly I have done nothing but eat, work & watch TV. I need to get back to the grind but between life, this weather & the happenings of my birthday coming I am just not into it. Sad part is I know that these are excuses & I know that people have far worse things going on in there life but do not let it stop them. Unfortunately this is where I am & how I feel. I am proud of myself for at least realizing my mistakes & knowing that I need to change before it gets out of hand.

Now for a change....

Life..

I thought I would be able to write on here soon & have something positive to say. Right now my life is on hold (my husband is Army) & the stress is overwhelming. I really just want to stay in bed & do nothing. This is just a quick update until we learn more. I just feel lost right now.

P.S. I am reading your blogs just not commenting right now. This is been a hard couple of months & seems not to be letting up.

To be honest...

To be honest my weight went up 5 pounds... To be honest it is back down again. It scared me though because I knew 5 turns into 10 which turns to 15 & so on. I am so happy to get back down again.

I have also been in the hospital last week because the week before that I got so dizzy I hit my head & passed out at work. No clue what happened. They have run test & things have come back fine. I do have leaky heart valves whatever that means. I still have to do an MRI & vision test. I have to wait until Feb. 14th before I can even get my referrals so who knows how long this may take.

We are playing the waiting game right now with the Army. The game that tells us where we go next in our lives & when. I personally am not ready to move from Germany. I have found it "safe" for my eating & weight. The restaurants are not like in the states. The food is fresh & there are not fast food places everywhere you go. Moving is going to be the biggest challenge I think I will have to face. Hopefully I have come far enough in this journey to make it!!

I am sorry I am all over the place with this post. Right now that is what is in my head. Thoughts going everywhere.