Wednesday, March 7, 2012

Slipping

I have become the person that I had managed to say good bye to for almost 2 years. I am letting the stress of my life get to me. I have not exercised, I have eaten more then I should & things that I should not. I stepped on the scale & I have gained 4 pounds. I need to nip this in the butt right now. I can not allow letting the stress of Army life get to me. Part of being a military family is never knowing anything & then expecting to change everything in a drop if the hat.

My husband just informed me that he can reenlist but we are needs of the Army. A nice way of saying you get to move where we tell you & you have no say... AT ALL. This scares me but I am thankful that they are allowing him to reenlist. That is a big weight off of our shoulders. We should now by the middle of next week.

So honestly I have done nothing but eat, work & watch TV. I need to get back to the grind but between life, this weather & the happenings of my birthday coming I am just not into it. Sad part is I know that these are excuses & I know that people have far worse things going on in there life but do not let it stop them. Unfortunately this is where I am & how I feel. I am proud of myself for at least realizing my mistakes & knowing that I need to change before it gets out of hand.

Now for a change....


3 comments:

Marcelle said...

Sarah I have not seen you on Dailymile as often so knew there was a problem, but also know what u are going through emotionally so didn't want to both you ~ You will never allow the old Sarah to resurface as you know how good this Sarah feels....
Just do what you need to do...eat good foods.....train with Angie...get her to pull you to classes if need be.
I do understand this is a tough stage and I am so sad that you are going to be leaving me here!!!!!

blackhuff said...

I'm really sorry to read that you are going through a difficult time at the moment. I understand that the emotions are overflowing at the moment and this is what makes you not eat good or exercise but remember, this will pass too. You will get through this. Although you're not exercising, try to eat sensible. We are all here for you.
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Fran said...

Things will turn out better for you once you know where your family's future will be.

And maybe somebody else got bigger problems but this is your problem and it worries you and I totally understand. If there's one thing I can't deal very well with it's not knowing what the future will bring.

I hope you hear soon where you will be going and that you find your exercising and eating mojo back. Go to Zumba, you love it and it will cheer you up.