Friday, July 1, 2011

Hit Rock Bottom

Thank you for the comments on my last post. I really was not sure who would read since I have been MIA for awhile but it is nice to know some of you still care!

I am not sure what slump I am in but it is getting worse. The sad past is my friend needs me now more then anything & I am in a slump. Her husband is getting ready to deploy to Afghanistan. They have been married 10 years & somehow he has never had to go. I think this might be harder on her just for that reason alone. She needs an upbeat friend to make her not worry & I am in a slump. I just want to have my pity party & cry. I truly have no clue where this is coming from & my husband has even noticed a difference in my mood.

Maybe it is becasue I am 3.6 pounds away from my goal I had set for myself & now that I am close I feel like I need to lose 20 plus more pounds. On the BMI chart that will put me on the low side of healthy. It is all just becoming to much for me right now. Until my stomach goes away I truly feel this is going to be a never ending mind game. I can't even break a smile when someone tells me that I have lost weight or look so good. In my mind I am still seeing fat...

I am going to leave you with some pictures from Tunisia. We went there for a week & Italy and I managed not to gain a pound! That did make me smile!!

These pictures are all from Tunisia. I have not even gotten close to the Italy ones yet!! Hope everyone has a great weekend!! It is a Holiday weekend for us so the men all have a 4 day! We are throwing a game night which might be the last for our friend before he leaves. Hoping for many laughs tonight!!


Marcelle said...

I hope you do not find me coming to visit you next week *stressful*
I'm hoping spending sometime with you and doing things with you will get you out of this slump...

Fran said...

Of course I will still read your blog, you are still in my Google reader so you pop up once you write a new post.

I'm sorry that you're in a slump. Wish I could say something bright to get you out of it but I can't.

I hope the party for your friends leave will be a great one, one he can remember with a smile when he is away.

Take care Sarah.

Sunshine Mama said...

You do look way leaner. I know how it feels to hit what you thought was your goal weight and realize it's still not where you want to be. And all you can see is still weeks and weeks and pounds and pounds to lose yet. I'm there right now. I lost 15 pounds then gained it. Ha. Now I'm starting over.

But maybe talking to someone about your mood like you plan to do will help with the mind games.

Have a good weekend!

dawne said...

I am worried about you Sarah. I really hope you talk to a professional soon. There is a connection with cross cultural adjustment issues and eating issues. I know you've been in Germany a while, but sometimes expat women don't struggle until their well into their overseas term.

There's no sense in me telling you what I see physically, because you don't see it. You will get through this.