Stuck..

I really wanted to focus on writing on here at least once a week but it seems I am so busy. Not knowing when we move or where I am throwing things out & going through them. I am trying to find time to edit photos. I still have photos from last summer to edit & I took over 300 in London which I swear is the best country I have been to so far. Weather sucked but the people were the nicest I have ever run into. Anyways this is a weight loss blog so back to weight loss....

I am stuck like Chuck on the same number for what seems like FOREVER. I really would like to lose 10-15 pounds more & I think I would be good. I have decided that I will be having surgery to remove the extra skin & my husband & I decided that I need to maintain my weight stateside for a year before I do it. Germany is easier since the fast food choices are limited & not on every corner. Being in the states will be a true test.

Will everything I have learned from Oct. 2009 until now work for me in the states. I pray with everything. I refuse to need to buy a bigger size EVER AGAIN.

I need some help. I eat salads at lunch & well I love salads I need other ideas. I am getting a little tired of the same thing 5 days a week. What are some good lunches to eat at work? My dessert is fruit & soy pudding but I need help with lunch!!

I am leaving you with a photo from London.It was taken at Ripley's Believe it or Not!

London...

Just a quick note to say that I am off to London for a 4 day with another couple minus the kids!!! This will be a nice getaway though eating will be interesting... See you all next week!

Slipping

I have become the person that I had managed to say good bye to for almost 2 years. I am letting the stress of my life get to me. I have not exercised, I have eaten more then I should & things that I should not. I stepped on the scale & I have gained 4 pounds. I need to nip this in the butt right now. I can not allow letting the stress of Army life get to me. Part of being a military family is never knowing anything & then expecting to change everything in a drop if the hat.

My husband just informed me that he can reenlist but we are needs of the Army. A nice way of saying you get to move where we tell you & you have no say... AT ALL. This scares me but I am thankful that they are allowing him to reenlist. That is a big weight off of our shoulders. We should now by the middle of next week.

So honestly I have done nothing but eat, work & watch TV. I need to get back to the grind but between life, this weather & the happenings of my birthday coming I am just not into it. Sad part is I know that these are excuses & I know that people have far worse things going on in there life but do not let it stop them. Unfortunately this is where I am & how I feel. I am proud of myself for at least realizing my mistakes & knowing that I need to change before it gets out of hand.

Now for a change....

Life..

I thought I would be able to write on here soon & have something positive to say. Right now my life is on hold (my husband is Army) & the stress is overwhelming. I really just want to stay in bed & do nothing. This is just a quick update until we learn more. I just feel lost right now.

P.S. I am reading your blogs just not commenting right now. This is been a hard couple of months & seems not to be letting up.

To be honest...

To be honest my weight went up 5 pounds... To be honest it is back down again. It scared me though because I knew 5 turns into 10 which turns to 15 & so on. I am so happy to get back down again.

I have also been in the hospital last week because the week before that I got so dizzy I hit my head & passed out at work. No clue what happened. They have run test & things have come back fine. I do have leaky heart valves whatever that means. I still have to do an MRI & vision test. I have to wait until Feb. 14th before I can even get my referrals so who knows how long this may take.

We are playing the waiting game right now with the Army. The game that tells us where we go next in our lives & when. I personally am not ready to move from Germany. I have found it "safe" for my eating & weight. The restaurants are not like in the states. The food is fresh & there are not fast food places everywhere you go. Moving is going to be the biggest challenge I think I will have to face. Hopefully I have come far enough in this journey to make it!!

I am sorry I am all over the place with this post. Right now that is what is in my head. Thoughts going everywhere.

I owe it to me!

I need a change. I write about it all the, I think about it all the time. I think I am OK with losing 60 pounds & since I have a normal BMI for the first time in years I am not pushing myself. Today though I realized that I owe it to myself. I have come to far to just stabilize. I owe it to myself to get these extra 20 pounds off. I am at my first goal weight. A weight I thought was going to be good but I am here & it is no good.

I have Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred. I have never gotten past a week because I get bored. Well I see people that do the entire video, that stick with it & get results. I owe myself that. So starting tomorrow that is my Day 1!

I also have Jillian Michaels shred it with weights. My plan is the 30 day shred then after the 30 days pick up Shred it with Weights!

I know I can do this. I owe it to myself to be happy with what I see looking back in the mirror!

A New Year

Well I can safely say that I made it through the holidays without a gain! This is surprising to me because I truly felt like I may have over done it a little more then I should of. I am sad to admit though that when I went back & looked at my weight at the beginning at 2011 I am only down 4 pounds. That's it. 4 flippin pounds in an entire year. I feel like I wasted the entire year. My friend asked my how many inches I have lost over the year & I am unsure. So this year I took my measurements. I have gone down sizes so I guess well the scale did not move the measurements did.

My daughter & I

I do feel like it is time to step up though. I have a big birthday coming in March & I would really like to be down 10 pounds. I have 2 1/2 months to do it in & well I know it is doable I have no clue why the scale is not moving anymore. I do exercise everyday. I do need to find something different or to add. Not sure what.

Here is my last week of 2011. This was easier to pull off as I was on vacation so work did not get in the way!




I do know I want to plan out my meals better & add more weight training to my exercise. Also eat a little cleaner.

New Year's Eve

My meals right now are looking like

Breakfast ~ Activia with fiber, fruit & oats
Lunch ~ Salad, soy pudding with fruit & Nature Valley Oat Bar
Dinner ~ Is whatever I make

My biggest issue is when I get home to dinner time. I am thinking about a protein shake. I need to know what my snack will be. I think will help a lot from the mindless munching I do until dinner.

2012 WILL be the year I get to the weight I want to see on the scale!!!


Does anymore do protein shakes & if so what kind of protein do you use?